Make me like You Lord! Rugby Bowl 2015

Modeling the Rugby Bowl 2015  

From left to right, pictured with Brian Hill Phoenix Fashion Week, Executive Director; Susie Massaro Model; Me; and Percy Knox Phoenix Fashion Week, Advisory Board Member

Earlier this week The Lord gave me a word through Evangelist Tommie Zito.  The word was that Christ is transforming me to be like Him.

Immediately after receiving the word, I heard my flesh cry out "I don't want to be like You Jesus!"

As I sat sobbing, I realized from that fleshly cry, exactly why The Lord was transforming me.

Before receiving that word, if one had asked me if I wanted to be like Christ, then without hesitation I would have said yes, of course.

But that word, helped me to see that part of my heart, deep down inside that still had not been completely surrendered to The Lord.

I repented and confessed Christ as Lord of my heart, my body, my soul, my mind and my life.

In a powerful worship experience the next day, I encountered The Lord.  I saw His face, I felt Him enter my heart; and I have been changed!  I know that becoming like Christ is an ongoing process, but this week God has truly begun a new thing in me. 

What a blessing that we are chosen to be like Him! 

As a model, I am always aware of how I look.  As a Christian, I make sure to be involved with projects that incorporate ministry and that I take pictures I can show my parents, nieces and nephews, pastors and friends at church.  This week’s experience with The Lord challenged me to think about whether or not I look like Christ.

I realized that this is what my flesh is most afraid of, because looking like Christ requires that I die to all of the natural conventions about looks, femininity and self-identity.

While society focuses on manipulating our outward appearance; God is examining the heart.  Indeed "the look" of Christ can only be achieved from the inside out. 

My prayer:

Lord I love you with all that is in me.  Jesus, help me to take up my cross and follow You every day.  Holy Spirit show me when I am being led astray by my flesh and give me the strength to change my mind and my heart to turn towards you.  Lord my hearts desire is to be a true worshiper in spirit and in truth.  Thank You Jesus for Your transforming sacrifice! Thank you Lord for helping me to be just like You!  

Birthday Moments with The Lord

The Lord woke me up at 4:44am on 4/4 (my birthday) to set the entire agenda for the day.  

I praised Him as he gave me two prophetic acts to perform.

The first act was to write on a sheet of paper all of the old habits, old memories, old thoughts that I had already repented of and bury them.

By 7:30am I was pulling weeds at my flower bed.  As I was doing so, the Lord spoke to me about how he tends to our hearts like a gardener.  How he gently pulls the weeds out of our hearts and prepares our hearts to flourish in His word and truth.  When all the weeds were pulled, I wrote down all of the things I wanted to bury, tore them up and buried them under the dirt in the flower bed.  It felt great!

By 10am I was performing the second act, scaling a wall at an indoor mountain climbing facility and declaring to the Lord, “Give me my mountain!”  I found that getting to the top of the mountain was easy, but letting go so that the auto belay could ease me down was the hard part.  I actually did a double work out, climbing up the wall and then climbing down.  The Lord had used this to reveal a heart issue---letting go.   A kind man tried to help me the second time, encouraging me on the way up and at the end cooing me to let go.  As I held on at the top, griping the plastic rocks with all my strength, fear of falling would not let me release my hold.  I prayed “Jesus help me to let go” and held on for as long as I could until finally, in tears I climbed my way back down.

After all this I had a massage and later headed to my birthday party where a few faithful friends gathered to celebrate with me.

The next day, Resurrection Sunday, the Lord showed me what it meant to rest in Him.  I had plans of what I would wear, what I would do and yet, could not get out of bed until nearly 2pm.  I was aching and sore from Saturday and in spite of all my plans, I slept through most of the day.

My prayer this year:

Lord help my unbelief, help my distrust, show me great God how to rely completely on You.  Give me greater capacity to cling only to You Lord and to let go of everything I serve in fear of falling into your arms.  Thank you Jesus for how you carefully tend to my heart protecting it from weeds and nourishing it with Your love. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.   

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