Birthday Moments with The Lord

The Lord woke me up at 4:44am on 4/4 (my birthday) to set the entire agenda for the day.  

I praised Him as he gave me two prophetic acts to perform.

The first act was to write on a sheet of paper all of the old habits, old memories, old thoughts that I had already repented of and bury them.

By 7:30am I was pulling weeds at my flower bed.  As I was doing so, the Lord spoke to me about how he tends to our hearts like a gardener.  How he gently pulls the weeds out of our hearts and prepares our hearts to flourish in His word and truth.  When all the weeds were pulled, I wrote down all of the things I wanted to bury, tore them up and buried them under the dirt in the flower bed.  It felt great!

By 10am I was performing the second act, scaling a wall at an indoor mountain climbing facility and declaring to the Lord, “Give me my mountain!”  I found that getting to the top of the mountain was easy, but letting go so that the auto belay could ease me down was the hard part.  I actually did a double work out, climbing up the wall and then climbing down.  The Lord had used this to reveal a heart issue---letting go.   A kind man tried to help me the second time, encouraging me on the way up and at the end cooing me to let go.  As I held on at the top, griping the plastic rocks with all my strength, fear of falling would not let me release my hold.  I prayed “Jesus help me to let go” and held on for as long as I could until finally, in tears I climbed my way back down.

After all this I had a massage and later headed to my birthday party where a few faithful friends gathered to celebrate with me.

The next day, Resurrection Sunday, the Lord showed me what it meant to rest in Him.  I had plans of what I would wear, what I would do and yet, could not get out of bed until nearly 2pm.  I was aching and sore from Saturday and in spite of all my plans, I slept through most of the day.

My prayer this year:

Lord help my unbelief, help my distrust, show me great God how to rely completely on You.  Give me greater capacity to cling only to You Lord and to let go of everything I serve in fear of falling into your arms.  Thank you Jesus for how you carefully tend to my heart protecting it from weeds and nourishing it with Your love. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.